MUPPETS! Go, go there now.
I just discovered a number of posts on my old blog that should be on this blog. Nothing earthshattering or I'd take the trouble to transfer them here but interesting none the less.
To Mike's house we went for our usual Thanksgiving extravaganza. It was delightful as always. Every year I marvel at our 20 and 30 somethings turn into grownups before our very eyes. And now we have a third generation represented yesterday in the form of Elise and her on the way baby brother or sister. As usual dinner was big enough to feed an army, the table was filled to overflowing with food, love, laughter, toasts, general good cheer and 24 people. I LOVE IT.
Today I resisted the urge to head to Purls of Joy for what I'm sure was a black Friday yarn sale. Amazing how you can resist things when you have to money! Instead we finished cleaning out the cabin where a tenant moved out. I use the term finished loosely as the carpets are so disgusting we have to rip them out as well. A task for another day and someone not plagued by allergies
She left EVERYTHING. And I do mean everything up to and including a full refrigerator. I swept the kitchen floor, stood back to admire my work and concluded you couldn't even tell I'd touched it. This a floor that was installed less than 6 months ago.
While someone tackled the big things like bed frames, furniture and mattresses I raked, yes raked the carpet. We managed to get everything out of the place in 2 1/2 hours then I rushed home an took a shower. I was tempted to toss my clothes in the garbage but they went in the laundry instead.
Now it's time to load up the dumpster, drop acceptable toys at the Salvation Army and burn the rest.
Now I remember why we decided to sell the 30 acres!
So how went your black Friday?
Yes because I'm now in the Medicare drug gap $981 is what I must pay for 5 prescriptions for 1 month's worth of said prescriptions. My portion of the gap is a total of $3500. That's the amount I must pay before my medicare drug plan kicks in again. So far I've forgone 2 prescriptions because of the cost, the result a runny nose and stuffed up ears. I've forked out $ 500 for 1 prescription I can't stop taking or things would be ugly around here. Like leaving Larry and Dr. Sanity letters and heading out to the ocean to drown ugly.
Fortunately the clock resets January 1, but in a bid to make my prescriptions cheaper and my gap smaller I have the priviledge of paying a $99 premium rather than a $20 premium. This premium is of course separate from the $300 I must pay Medicare (thank you American Express*) AND the $249 Medigap coverage I have.
We need insurance company reform along with healthcare reform. Healthcare reform on it's own will be a joke unless the insurance companies are forced in line. All health insurance companies should be non-profit.
Just another reason why I hate George Bush.
*I am disabled from American Express. Last year they decided that I must get Medicare or some other form of insurance, BWAAA HAAA. I'd been told that Medicare premiums were about $120 a month. Not bad I thought and even with the Medigap premium I'd be saving about $100 a month on insurance. NOT SO FAST because there's a catch in Medicare if you're under 65 which I am. I must pay the regular Medicare premium IN ADDITION to a $170 penalty because of my age.
Yes, another 6 month ultrasound that looks great! A truly great Thanksgiving gift. I'll have another 6 months "beause of your history" quotes McD and I'll probably graduate to once a year. I love science.
That's a apt description for my nerves tonight, sizzling at the edges. You see I have my 6 month breast ultrasound tomorrow. Now intellectually I know that the scan won't show anything it shouldn't but my nerves are not quite so easily convinced.
This afternoon I talked to Dr. Sanity and assured her I had talked myself out of being scared about tomorrow. I just forgot to tell my nerve endings and my stomach. Let's see the countdown ends 19 hours exactly (as I type) tomorrow. Then thankfully an appointment with Dr. Sanity follows. God bless Dr. Sanity she really does keep me sane, well she and Abilify.
I've been thinking about Mason a lot lately. It's hard not to when someone you love has been taken from you so fast. I've also been thinking about my sister and my niece who have lost a husband and a father.
In all this thinking I've come to the realization that the answer to your prayers may not be what you expected. I had been praying for Mason to be well. It turns out the answer to that prayer was that he died faster. Not exactly what I asked for but what Mason needed. Not what I wanted for my sister and niece but then they didn't have to spend months watching him die in uncontrollable pain.
A classic case of you can't always get what you want but rather what you need.
yet the world keeps turning. Our wonderful Mason is now in his tomb and yet the world keeps turning. Our shock is still ripe, our grief is still raw yet the world keeps on turning.