I recently discovered by way of the tv show Parenthood that my breast cancer journey is not yet over. Last week at the end of the show one of the main characters was diagnosed with breast cancer. I immediately started crying and proceeded to cry through the previews for the next show. I remember telling Larry I didn't know if I'd be able to watch this week's show. Fortunately I had an appt with Dr. Sanity before the show.
I hadn't been able to figure out why the character's diagnosis hit me so profoundly. Talking with Dr. Sanity I realized I'd never cried when I was diagnoses. I was too shocked to cry and was immediately thrown into the medical model where feelings aren't covered very well.
I was able to watch this week's episode, there was enough humor to offset the drama. But it was very creepy when Kristina (the character) was told her tumor was small and up against the chest wall because that's exactly what I was told.
It's now been six years and 4 months since I was diagnosed and I'm just learning the journey has yet to end. So now I'll walk through a different part of my journey, recalling the past but looking toward the future.