Well, it's not going to kill you

It's my blog and I'll post what I want to.

I could have named this post so many things,

Are you people fricking nuts?

Deliberate Misinterpretation

What Feminists really want

What I should have said

My Bad

to name a few.  Most of you probably don't want to read this, it's a rant about the  people on the blog I told you about earlier.  I just need to get the words out of my head or they'll haunt me in the middle of the night.  And yes, I'm being a total and complete bitch because it's my blog and I can. 

I've been posting, and I admit baiting a bit because it's entertaining to watch them foam at the mouth like rabid dogs, for a few days now.

I really appreciated the "feminist" code speak that flint's gunner left.  Now I know what I'm supposed to be thinking about men because I'm a feminist.  You can find it in the comments section.  I'm not going to bother to link to this blog.  If you're interested scroll back a few days and you'll find the link.

I was also accused of blatantly lying in some comment I made that I actually didn't make.

And because I said I was happy - OMG if I had to say I was happy then I couldn't really be happy.

One of my favorite exchanges went like this.

to me - just because you don't personally use those kinds of words by not standing up and speaking against them (the feminists)  it's tantamount to endorsing them.

my reply - that's ridiculous.  That's like saying because I'm not actively seeking George Bush's impeachment I'm tacitly agreeing he's a good president.

We went on in that vain while they choose to deliberately misinterpret things I said and ignored things that didn't follow their message.

Today I finally said I give up.  I know they're having a field day.  They consider that they have vanquished their evil foe.

All men should immediately be demoted to counter help at McDonald's.  Women will take over every job from CEO to garbageman.  We will also take over every high school, college  and graduate spot.  Men will no longer be allowed to stay in school past the 8th grade.

Men will become the primary caregivers of the children in the family.  Also the housework, laundry, cooking, appointment making and chauffeuring of said children.  And kill that spider in the corner while you're at it.   We will revel in this because men deserve it.  For you poor abused men visiting my blog that's called sarcasm.

What real feminists want (not these people's warped perception of feminists) is for mom's to be able to stay home with their kids if that's their choice.  To be able to work in their chosen careers without hitting a glass ceiling if that's what they chose.  To be treated with respect, to have equal an opportunity to get an advanced education, to have equal pay for equal work.  You know what every other person in the world wants.

And my bad because I apparently didn’t come up with any proof to refute their statements and refused to bow to their collective wisdom.  What was I thinking?

Can you imagine how they'll react if Hillary gets elected?

and the horse you rode in on - updated

I'm just generally pissed today.  I wrote a long rant and everytime I tried to post it typepad failed.

Hughesnet finally got email working by de-installing their upgrade however I'm missing emails from Sat and Sun.

The house sitter has not returned my call.  We leaving tomorrow to go to San Francisco for a couple of days.  The regular housesitter can't come, he gave us the name of someone.  I talked to him, he was supposed to call yesterday or today to come meet us but ....

And in the interest of expediency I went to Walmart!  I never go to Walmart.  I don't like that they think they're so almighty powerful that they can edit books, movies and music without the author's permission.

I got my rant posted.

This is me, this is me screaming with frustration!

I just got off the phone with Hughesnet customer service.  They installed an email upgrade this weekend and I still don't have access to my email.  My main email.  The email the world knows me by.

When I pointed out to the customer service person that I had not had email since Saturday his reply was "don't worry it's only been 3 days".  If I could have reached through the phone and choked him I would have.

I remember posting not that long ago about how my tolerance level had changed since I had cancer.  Today really pointed that out to me.  It takes very little to send me over the edge into absolute fury.  I don't like it and I try not to let in happen but sometimes ...

And when it does happen, stay out of my way because the sarcasm comes out and I can get very nasty.  Funny (not ha, ha funny) how every little aspect of your life can change because you had cancer.  I think it's related to not wanting to waste time.  No one knows how much time they're going to get but having cancer really points that out.

Dirt under my nails

Yay, playing in the dirt.  So much fun.  Got the window boxes replanted, some plants pruned and clean up.  Then I spent a lot of time contemplating how your garden can go to hell when it doesn't get adequately tended for 2 years.  Wow there's a lot of work out there!

The other thing I discovered in my hands become much itchier must faster than they used did before chemo.  I wonder of the allergic reaction I had to Taxotere made my allergy worse than it was already.  I wonder if getting pumped full of steroids before every chemo treatment made my allergy worse.  

I wonder, I wonder, I wonder.  As I sit here with my itchy hands and my asthma lurking in my chest.  I wonder if anyone is doing research on that.  I wonder.

Healthcare reform or perhaps not ...

As a cancer survivor I worry about healthcare, more specifically health insurance.  I don't know how much my treatment cost but I know it was not a small number.  I remember the bill for getting my port installed, an out-patient procedure mind you, was $5000.  Lucky for us insurance covered most everything.  I probably hit my $1000 per year maximum pay out that year.

Then the was the ruptured bowel, hit $1000 max last year as well.

This year I'm well on my way to hitting the maximum again.  My cost for the lovely weekend I spent in the hospital in January is $700.

Imagine my dismay when I came across this article today on huffingtonpost.com

In a stunning - if predictable - story, the Hillnewspaper reports that congressional Democrats are now saying that they will effectively thwart any effort to create a national health care program. Here is the key excerpt:

"Congressional Democrats are backing away from healthcare reform promises made by their two presidential candidates, saying that even if their party controls the White House and Congress, sweeping change will be difficult...Sen. Charles Schumer (N.Y.), a member of Senate Democratic leadership and a key Hillary Clinton ally who also sits on the Finance Committee, said he is 'not sure we have the big plan on healthcare.'...'Healthcare I feel strongly about, but I am not sure that we're ready for a major national healthcare plan,' Schumer said...Rep. Kendrick Meek (D-Fla.), a Clinton supporter who sits on the House Ways and Means Committee, said "the money is not necessarily there right now" to enact the plans."

This really scares me.  What if American Express decides to cut retiree health insurance.  I now pay $480 a month for health insurance.  With a number of pre-existing conditions I might never be able to get healthcare let alone afford it.

We desperately need a national healthcare program.  It's totally ridiculous that people in the world's wealthiest country are going without proper medical care.  Idiot Bush's solution that they go to the emergency from is insane.

For one thing going through the ER is the most expensive way to see a doctor.  For another going to ER happens only after you're sick.  Preventive medicine would take care of a majority of health problems because of early screening.

Some one needs to give the medical insurance companies a kick in the butt.  Clearly the Dems are already saying they're not.  Talk about cutting the candidates off at the knees!

Customer service

Oh yeah, customer service in it's many varying levels.  

I used to work for American Express, there the customer is king.  The customer may not always be right but they are ALWAYS treated with immense respect.

Hughes.net customer service, not so much.  I haven't been able to access my email account since yesterday. I called the 800 number because the website say email is now available, um not a my house.  The 800 voice says that email is available, again not a my house.  I wait the requisite ridiculous amount of time to speak to some one in India.  Much to my amazement the person actually speaks understandable English.

I proceed to explain that I can't get my email even though their site and the phone say I can.  He tells me  they updated the system and it resulted in a degradation of service.  Oops.  The engineers are working on it and I'll just have to wait.  OK, so do they expect it to be up, because I haven't had email for 2 days now.  They don't know, the engineers are working on it and I'll just have to wait.

That's it, that's Hughes.net customer service - you just have to wait.

I've learned many new words today.

More accurately I have reacquainted myself with the definitions of words I know but had forgotten their literal meanings.  

I long ago learned that because of the volume of material that I read I can usually decipher the meaning of a word by how it's used in a sentence.  But today I wanted the real definitions because they were quite germane to the subject matter.

For example mendacity - a tendency to lie as in 

"Even at this early date in his tenure, the president had demonstrated an undeniable capacity for mendacity. America took him at his word when he said that he was a uniter, not a divider; that our foreign policy would be humble; that he would address climate change by regulating carbon dioxide. In the first months of his administration he had already turned his back on these bedrock campaign pledges."

Also misandry - hatred of men as in

My new blog aims to remove the filthy scum that is misandry from our society. In recent times great products like Grime-Away have been developed to remove nasty stains from our lives. But as I look around the world today I cant help but notice the proliferation of messages, images and ideas that actively seek to undermine and attack men. As Popeye used to say "I’ve had all I can stand, I can’t stands no more", for it is time to stand up and face the "hate that dares not speak its name".

And committing journalism as in

I was being charged with the crime of “committing journalism.” One of my captors, Detective Inspector Dani Rangwani, described the offense to me as something despicable, almost hissing the words: “You’ve been gathering, processing and disseminating the news.”

And Heterogeneity  - the quality or state of being heterogeneous; composition from dissimilar parts; disparateness.

Last but not least  heterogeneous different in kind; unlike; incongruous.

Both as in 

* Heterogeneity of breast cancer associations with five susceptibility loci by clinical and pathological characteristics.

Montserrat Garcia-Closas et al. 2008.

PLoS Genetics.

** The researchers in this study used data provided by the Breast Cancer Association Consortium (BCAC) - a huge international collaborative group of researchers interested in inherited risk of breast cancer. Co-ordination of BCAC is funded by Cancer Research UK.

Hormone dependent breast cancers are also known as ER positive and hormone independent breast cancers as ER negative. 

My interpretation of the above:

Bush is a lying sack of shit - knew that

Feminism equals hatred of men - didn't know that

Reporting the truth can get you in big trouble - knew that

My ER negative tumor has a different origin than an ER positive tumor - suspected but not known until now.

I hope you learned as much as I did today.

Comments on another post I did

 This one was the post about the gun story on CNN.

I just read the comments which were very good on both sides.  I did have a pause about having a legal and moral ability to kill someone.  NO ONE has a legal or moral right to kill another human being.  Period.

However to state my opinion more clearly perhaps if we did have such free and easy access to guns the students at Vtech or any other school for that matter would not feel the need to have a concealed weapon.  

Yes I know there are guns laws and registration laws. How many times has it been shown that gun shops ignore the process, or the database is out of date or that someone just buys a gun out of a trunk?

This is not the wild west.  Because excuse me but who needs an automatic weapon?  Sports hunters, I think not.  It's a cruel and barbaric sport.  People who hunt to feed their families?  Yes they probably need their guns but not automatics.  The neighbor down the street?  Why?  If you feel you need a gun to protect yourself, which you wouldn't if guns where not floating around the streets then a handgun should suffice .

In my opinion the only people who should have guns are police officers.  However that is just my opinion and you are all more than entitled to your own.  

I feel good, how's that song go?

I do indeed feel good.  I used the services of our Integrative Health and Healing program for the first time today.  Funny I've been raising money for the program for 4 years but never thought to take advantage of it myself.

I had a Jin Shin Jyutsu treatment today.  It's a Japanese form of energy work and the person I saw today throws a little massage into the mix.  It was wonderful actually beyond wonderful, it was amazing.  At a few points I could feel so much energy flying through me that I felt as if I could shoot lightening bolts out of the palms of my hands.  Zap!

I was explaining to the therapist before she started that I wanted my body back.  Ever since chemo and radiation it hasn't felt as if it was really mine.  It still doesn't am I not sure that it ever will again.  I do hope I eventually regain some connection with it but it feels a whole lot better today than it has in a long time.

Sad and angry people

Remember that blog I wrote about a few days ago, the anti-feminist one?  Well I made the grave mistake of trying to have a conversation.  The post on the blog was about male domestic violence.  I asked how it was related to feminism.  Simple question I thought because indeed how is it related?  I'm pretty sure that male domestic violence has been around as long as female domestic violence.  But I still wanted to understand how it was related to feminism.  The original poster of the blog has yet to bother to answer but, boy, A LOT of other people have.

One said if I had to ask then I wouldn't understand any way.  Um, OK is guess knowledge is not a good thing after all.  Because if they keep their ideas secret then they can still claim feminism has ruined their lives without explaining why or how.

Another suggested that the solution to the problem was to get a gun and shoot all feminists.

Still another was EXTREMELY vocal, heavily into gross generalizations and name calling.  He was very articulate and raised some interesting points so I said I'd like to discuss them but only if we could have a civil conversation.  Some how wanting to have a civil conversation was turned into an offense.

As the "conversation" continued I mentioned that I knew for a fact that equal work for equal pay was not a reality.  I had been a victim.  Then I talked about 2 presidents of the division that I worked for in a Fortune 100 company.  1 male, 1 female.  I knew for a fact the she was paid considerable less than he.  That raised the question of how I knew compensation, contracts, education levels etc.  I explained again that I was the expense budget analyst and knew those numbers down to the penny and their education levels had been well known through out my level of the company.  I said that I hesitated to say the male was dumber than a box of rocks but it was close.  He could not grasp simple budget allocations that I explained every. single. year. for. seven. years.  Mind you the allocations never changed.  Of course the reply came back that school education means nothing along with some other slurs and accusations about feminists.  Oh and I was male bashing because I hate men. Yep apparently all feminists hate men.  I missed that class.

At that point I threw up my hands and said while I didn't understand their feelings I respected them.  They were never going to change theirs and I was never going to change mine so let's just agree the respect each other's and leave it at that.  Then I was accused of running away because I couldn't or wouldn't refute every point they made.

No one had anything to say about the comment that I worship and adore my husband and cook him (mostly) gourmet meals because it makes him happy and living with this feminist for 22 years has not made his life miserable.  Apparently if your facts don't fit their facts they don't exist.

I came to the realization that for these people you can only see things their way.  Period end of discussion. Also in their opinion, as a feminist it was my obligation to stand up and rant against other feminists who have some how, some way damaged their lives.  It's really, really sad.

But you know what?  I'm happy, they're not.  If they want to stand up and rant far be it from me to stop them.

But I'd still like to know how male domestic violence is related to feminism and just what mess feminist are supposed to have left for men to clean up.

Anyone have any REAL information I can read?