Seghesio have you forsaken me????? Everyone have you forsaken me???
Yes I realize that I have been more than a little, ok a lot, erratic lately a biopsy a week before you're 4 year anniversary on a cancer that reoccurs mostly in the first 5 years can do that to a person. So can going into DEEP MENTAL THERAPY. It's like riding a fricking roller coaster. One minute you've got life under control the next not, you get deeply depressed or deeply angry. Yes anger and outrage have been winning the war for a while now.But, hallelujah, the new drug Dr. Drug added to my "cocktail" seems to be making a HUGE difference for which I am eternally grateful. I know there are people out there like me who open their eyes in the morning and say NO, I JUST CAN'T. I have the luxury and believe me I KNOW it's a luxury to be able to say NO, I JUST CAN'T and spend the day in bed reading. I profoundly feel for the people who can't because I've been there as well.
It's nothing short of hell. Enough said.